January 2025 - Colours of life

Exploring the Artistic Journey of “Casual Cruelty”: A Reflection on Art and Social Commentary

Art possesses a unique ability to evoke deep emotions, provoke thought, and spark conversations about society’s most pressing issues. Painting “Casual Cruelty,” from the “Civilón – The Bull Who Ate Flowers” series, serves as a powerful example of this artistic potential. This piece reflects on the harsh realities faced by animals and draws inspiration from the impactful works of other artists, notably Banksy. In this blog post, I’ll explore the narrative and inspiration behind “Casual Cruelty,” delve into its connections with Banksy’s iconic pieces, and reflect on the broader messages conveyed through this powerful artwork.

The Story Behind "Casual Cruelty"

“Casual Cruelty” presents a surreal and haunting scene where childhood innocence meets stark reality. The painting features a disturbing image of a clown, resembling Ronald McDonald, laughing maniacally in the foreground. Behind him, a whimsical truck carries curious animals and cartoon characters, seemingly blissful yet ignorant of their grim destination. This juxtaposition of fantasy and brutality echoes the chilling message found in Banksy’s “Sirens of the Lambs.”

The narrative of “Casual Cruelty” delves into the contrasting lives of animals bred for different purposes. Bulls raised for bullfighting, known as “toro de lidia,” experience a life of relative freedom until their ultimate fate in the arena. In stark contrast, bulls bred for human consumption live a harsh existence, chained in barns, seldom seeing the sky or feeling the grass. Their final journey to the slaughterhouse is marked by a tragic irony—they experience the open sky and green fields for the first time during their last moments.

Through this painting, I aim to highlight the grim fate awaiting these creatures and draw parallels with the stories of Ferdinand, the gentle bull who preferred flowers over fighting, and Civilón, whose remarkable life was marked by public adoration and a tragic end. The vibrant yellows and reds set against a serene turquoise backdrop amplify the emotional intensity and the disturbing juxtaposition of innocence and cruelty.

Banksy's Influence

"Sirens of the Lambs" and the Inspiration for "Casual Cruelty"

Banksy, the elusive and provocative street artist, has created numerous works that challenge societal norms and critique various aspects of modern life. His art, known for its powerful social commentary and subversive humor, has profoundly influenced my own artistic vision. One of Banksy`s pieces, “Sirens of the Lambs,” features a truck filled with stuffed animals being driven around the streets of New York City. The animals, appearing frightened and bewildered, peer out from the truck’s compartments, evoking a strong emotional response from onlookers.

“Sirens of the Lambs” serves as a poignant commentary on the meat industry and the often-overlooked suffering of animals destined for slaughter. By placing these stuffed animals in a context that resembles transportation to a slaughterhouse, Banksy forces viewers to confront the harsh realities behind the meat they consume. The piece is a powerful critique of consumer culture and the casual cruelty inflicted on animals for the sake of convenience and profit.

In “Casual Cruelty,” I draw inspiration from one more Banksy’s work, “Napalm“, using a similar motif of a truck carrying innocent creatures to their doom. The inclusion of familiar cartoon characters and the Ronald McDonald figure adds a layer of surrealism and dark humor, making the viewer question the innocence of these symbols and their role in perpetuating consumerism and animal cruelty. A question mark on the truck signifies the uncertainty of who is next, adding to the haunting message of inevitable fate.

The Social Critique of Ronald McDonald in "Casual Cruelty"

The choice of Ronald McDonald as a central figure in “Casual Cruelty” is both deliberate and impactful. Ronald McDonald, the iconic mascot of the global fast-food chain McDonald’s, is a symbol of childhood joy and innocence. However, in this painting, he is depicted in a grotesque and disturbing manner, his laughter echoing through the canvas as he gives a thumbs-up with both hands.

This portrayal of Ronald McDonald serves as a poignant critique of the fast-food industry and its role in promoting unhealthy eating habits while often contributing to animal suffering. The cheerful clown, often associated with happy meals and fun, is transformed into a sinister figure, highlighting the dark side of the industry he represents.

Banksy, a renowned street artist known for his powerful social commentary, has also utilized Ronald McDonald in his works to convey profound messages. In one of his pieces, Ronald McDonald and Mickey Mouse are depicted holding hands with a terrified young Vietnamese girl, a reference to the famous photograph of Kim Phuc running from a napalm attack during the Vietnam War. This juxtaposition of beloved childhood characters with the horrors of war underscores the hypocrisy and moral ambiguities that exist within society.

By incorporating Ronald McDonald into “Casual Cruelty,” I align with Banksy’s approach, using familiar symbols to challenge viewers’ perceptions and provoke thought about the underlying issues. The painting becomes a powerful vehicle for social critique, questioning the impact of consumer culture on both humans and animals.

Reflecting on Media Influence

The Pepé Le Pew Controversy and Beyond

The recent controversy surrounding the animated character Pepé Le Pew sparked a significant debate on media influence and the portrayal of characters in popular culture. When the character was removed from the upcoming “Space Jam” sequel due to concerns about potentially promoting negative stereotypes and normalizing inappropriate behavior, it ignited a lively discussion on social media and in the mainstream media. This debate underscored the critical role that media plays in shaping our perceptions and influencing societal norms and values, highlighting the importance of careful consideration of the messages conveyed through popular culture.

This discussion extended beyond Pepé Le Pew, with some users calling for the “cancellation” of Miss Piggy from “The Muppets,” arguing that her behavior towards Kermit the Frog also perpetuates negative social behaviors. These debates demonstrate the ongoing conversation about the portrayal of characters in media and the potential impact of these portrayals on societal attitudes and behaviors.

In “Casual Cruelty,” the use of familiar and beloved characters like Ronald McDonald and cartoon animals serves to question their roles in shaping our perceptions and behaviors. The painting challenges viewers to reconsider the impact these characters have on our understanding of the world and encourages a critical examination of the messages conveyed through popular media.

"Casual Cruelty": A Reflection on Cruelty, Compassion, and Media

“Casual Cruelty” delves deep into the poignant themes of cruelty, compassion, and the profound influence of media on our perceptions. The painting serves as a stark reminder of the suffering endured by animals, often hidden from public view. It calls for greater awareness and compassion, urging viewers to reflect on their choices and the consequences of their actions.

The inclusion of cartoon characters and the whimsical truck within the artwork effectively highlights the role of media in shaping public perception. Just as Banksy’s works utilize powerful imagery to convey strong social messages, “Casual Cruelty” employs familiar symbols to draw attention to uncomfortable truths and challenge viewers to look beyond the surface and consider the deeper implications of their consumption habits.

From Inspiration to Creation

The Journey of "Casual Cruelty"

As an emerging artist, my journey has been deeply influenced by personal experiences and reflections on life, death, and the treatment of animals. Growing up in regions affected by war, I witnessed firsthand the brutal realities of violence and the profound impact it has on both humans and animals. These experiences have profoundly shaped my artistic vision, inspiring me to create works that challenge viewers to reflect on the ethical and moral implications of our actions.

“Casual Cruelty” is a culmination of this artistic journey, where I seek to evoke a disturbing yet thought-provoking feeling of blood and contrast, challenging viewers to confront the stark realities of animal cruelty. Through this painting, I aim to spark a conversation about fate, mortality, and the treatment of animals, inviting viewers to explore the profound narrative of life, death, and the haunting silence that follows.

A Final Reflection

The Power of Art to Inspire Change

“Casual Cruelty” is more than just a visual representation; it is a powerful commentary on the casual cruelty inflicted on animals and the broader societal implications of our actions. By drawing inspiration from the works of artists like Banksy and incorporating familiar symbols like Ronald McDonald, the painting challenges viewers to reflect on their choices and the impact of consumer culture on both humans and animals.

As you explore “Casual Cruelty,” I invite you to consider the deeper meanings behind the artwork and the narratives that shape our understanding of cruelty, compassion, and media influence. This painting is a testament to the power of art to evoke deep emotions, provoke meaningful conversations, and ultimately inspire positive change in our world. Through this work, I hope to spark a dialogue about the ethical and moral implications of our actions and encourage a greater sense of compassion and awareness in our everyday lives.

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Gone with a River: Ephemeral Art

“The abandoned art gallery, transformed into my ephemeral art atelier, became a symbol of both creativity and impermanence. Nestled among the trees on Karlovačka Ada, this space changed everything. Island atelier, built on sand, surrounded by trees, and kissed by the river’s breeze, stood as a testament to the creativity and impermanence that defined my journey. But just as the river gives life, it also takes it away. Knowing that this unique space wouldn’t last forever made it even more special. The island, the river, and the art we created were all in constant flux, reminding me to appreciate the present moment.”

The Rise and Fall of Island Atelier

The summer I arrived on Karlovačka Ada, I had no grand plans to become a professional artist—I simply wanted to paint, to pass the time during lockdown in a place of peace. But it was the abandoned art gallery, transformed into my open-air atelier that changed everything. That space, nestled among the trees, gave birth to the decision that would shape my future. Without it, I likely would have continued painting as a hobby. But, as with everything shaped by the forces of nature, its existence was temporary. Four years later, the Danube, relentless and unpredictable, claimed the atelier, washing away my creative sanctuary. Yet, as the river took, it also paved the way for something new—a different studio, a fresh beginning.

Life is Simple on the Island

I had visited island Karlovačka Ada many times before, but this time felt different. The island had always been a retreat from the rush of daily life. Among its natural beauty stood an art gallery, built entirely from natural materials for the Elysium Music Festival. However, with the festival canceled due to travel restrictions during the lockdown, the once lively gallery was now an abandoned structure, waiting for a new purpose. The impermanence of the gallery, built for a festival that never happened, resonated with me. It was a reminder that nothing lasts forever, and that even the most beautiful creations can be swept away by time and nature.

Years earlier, the Elysium Music Festival had brought life to Karlovačka Ada. For three consecutive years, enthusiasts gathered on the island, building stages and structures using materials found on-site—some of the structures built without cutting down trees. Among these structures was the art gallery, created by a Greek builder and local volunteers. It was a space built in harmony with the environment, with living trees as its pillars and a roof tied together with ropes and reeds.

However, in 2020, the festival was canceled due to travel restrictions. The organizers held off canceling the event for as long as possible, waiting to see if the travel restrictions would ease. But by early July, it became clear that the festival couldn’t go forward. Despite this, the infrastructure remained—the showers, campsites, and stages were all ready, but the visitors never came.

I saw the possibility that my materials and canvases, which had been on the Danube’s shore under the tree canopies, protected by nylon, could now be secured under the roof of the gallery. I needed a place that would protect my paintings and supplies from the elements, especially from wind and rain, but also a space that remained connected to the surrounding environment.

Creating a Ephemeral Studio in the Wild

With the organizers’ permission, I transformed the art gallery into my open-air atelier. It wasn’t perfect, but it was functional. The space was open on all sides, with only a basic roof made of reeds. The atelier had two entrances, one facing east and the other north, and its roof provided much-needed shelter from the rain while keeping me immersed in the island’s natural beauty. Over time, I made small improvements, weaving reeds into makeshift walls along one side and building a workspace with shelves where I could store and prepare my materials. Despite the improvements I made, I always knew the atelier was temporary. The river was a constant presence, a reminder that the island could reclaim this space at any moment.

Each day, I woke to the sounds of birds singing as the first light of dawn touched the island. The cool, humid air from the river mixed with the scent of trees, creating a peaceful atmosphere.

My days quickly fell into a rhythm: a morning coffee, followed by a swim in the Danube as I soaked in the warmth of the rising sun, then hours spent painting in the atelier, surrounded by the sounds of nature.

In the beginning, I often worked alone, but soon I was joined by friends and visitors. Friends would stop by, some to chat, others to watch, and a few to pick up a brush and join me in the act of creation. The studio became a collaborative space, open to anyone with the desire to express themselves. One of these visitors was my friend Dolores, whose journey to Mount Everest inspired me to paint pieces that later became part of my series of paintings “Journey to the Top”. That collaboration marked the start of my serious commitment to art.

A Season's End

Last Days on the Island

As the summer transitioned into autumn, the atmosphere on the island shifted once again. The rains came, and with them, a different feeling. The air grew colder and more humid, and the island, which had once been full of life, slowly emptied. By the end of the season, I found myself among the last people still camping there. The solitude, though challenging at times, gave me space to focus entirely on my art. It was during these final days that I dove deeper into my work, expressing more of what I had discovered about myself and the island over the years. As the nights grew colder and the weight of the damp air settled in, I knew it was time to prepare for the inevitable departure. Before leaving, I had to carefully pack up all my belongings, including the paintings I had created over the summer. As I packed up my belongings and secured the atelier for the winter, I felt a sense of melancholy. This ephemeral space had become my sanctuary, but I knew its days were numbered.

As the nights grew colder and the weight of the damp air settled in, I knew it was time to prepare for the inevitable departure. Before leaving, I had to carefully pack up all my belongings, including the paintings I had created over the summer. Everything needed to be taken back to the mainland; nothing could be left behind. The atelier itself needed to be secured, reinforced to withstand the harsh winter ahead. The roof and structure had to be tightened and fortified, ensuring it could endure the storms, wind, and possible snowfall that would come in the colder months. As I made the final adjustments, I realized this moment symbolized the end of one chapter and the anticipation of another. The island had given me so much, but now it was time for me to move on.

The Summers That Followed

Ephemeral Art and the Danube

In next summer, I returned to Karlovačka Ada, hoping to recapture the peace and magic of the previous summer. I started to paint the series Civilon – The Bull Who Loved to Eat Flowers. The island had become more crowded than the year before, especially on weekends, as more people sought refuge in nature during the pandemic. The quiet retreat I had known now bustled with activity, and to preserve the tranquility I so cherished, I adjusted my routine. I began camping during the weekdays and avoided the weekend crowds, reclaiming the sense of peace I had found the year before.

By the summer of 2022, I continued developing my series, moving between the island and my winter studio onshore, where I could refine my focus. That summer, we had a lot of work repairing the roof that had been damaged by snow; I replaced several beams that supported the roofing.By the next summer, I completed the Civilón series.

I also expanded the area behind the atelier to make space for my tent, with plans for the next summer to set up an improvised kitchen and a shelter with benches and a wooden table to host guests. But I had no idea what awaited me the next year. Then, in the winter of 2023, the highest water levels in over a decade struck the island. The water rose three times that year, and with each rise, more of the shore was swept away. The island’s landscape changed dramatically. The shoreline that had once supported the atelier was gone, and the structure, which had withstood years of wear, finally collapsed.

By late summer, the final flood destroyed what little remained of the beach in front of the atelier. The trees that once held up the roof had been swept into the river. When I arrived on the island after hearing about the destruction, I found the roof collapsed and the ground beneath it eroded away. The atelier, which had been my sanctuary for four summers, was now gone.

Facing Nature’s Power

Erosion and Loss

Island Karlovačka Ada has been made and shaped by the forces of the Danube. The island’s shores are constantly in flux, expanding and retreating with the rise and fall of the river. Over the years, I watched the sandy stretch between the atelier and the water shrink. When the first festival was held a decade ago, the beach in front of the art gallery was a wide expanse of about ten meters. But each summer, the river slowly claimed more of the land, pulling the shore closer to the gallery. By the time I transformed the gallery into an atelier, the beach had narrowed to about four meters. Still, there was enough space for people to pass by and for me to move around freely as I worked. But the river’s steady erosion was a reminder that this space—like everything else on the island—was temporary.

For the next two years, I spent my mornings hauling sand from the riverbank, trying to reinforce the ground in front of and around the atelier. It was a Sisyphean task, a form of exercise—and it became part of my morning routine.

Creation and Destruction

The River’s Lessons in Impermanence

When the flood finally receded, the atelier was beyond repair. Losing the atelier felt like a personal loss, but it was also a reminder of the transient nature of life and art. The island had given me a space to create, but it had also taken that space away. It was a stark symbol of the balance between creation and destruction that exists in nature—a balance I had come to accept over the years. The loss of the atelier was painful, but it was also a symbol of the impermanence that I had come to understand through my time on the island.

Two thoughts crossed my mind as I stood there: the desire to rebuild, not in the same place but somewhere new on the island, and the realization that perhaps it was time to find a more permanent space. I imagined a studio on the slopes of Fruška Gora, near Sremski Karlovci, where I could work year-round, close to nature but far enough from the river’s unpredictable tides. A place where I could continue to create without the constant threat of erosion. Still, for the permanent atelier to fulfill its purpose, the success of my artworks relied on them being bought by people willing to support my artistic endeavors.

Moving Forward

Embracing Change

The loss of my island atelier wasn’t the end of my creative journey; it was a transformation. The atelier had been a space of freedom, collaboration, and immersion in nature. Its destruction reminded me that creativity, like nature, is always in flux, always evolving. The island had given me so much, and while it had taken away the atelier, it had also given me the resilience to continue.

As I look toward the future, whether I rebuild the atelier on the island or create something new in the hills, I will carry the spirit of Karlovačka Ada with me. The island taught me about impermanence, the need to let go, and the beauty that comes from change. Creativity, like the river, is flowing, finding new paths. And with each loss, there is always the opportunity for new growth.

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The Power of Collaboration: Creating Friendship Through Art

Three collaborative paintings displayed on a rustic bamboo wall, showcasing the diversity of shared artistic expression.

“The magic of art collaboration lies in its ability to unite people – the power of collaboration to create long lasting friendship. In working together, we build connections, creating something far more meaningful than we could alone. This shared creative process fosters mutual inspiration and leads to creative growth”

Social Creativity: How Collaboration Fuels Artistic Growth

The power of collaboration friendship in art is truly unique. In my early days of painting, which I initially pursued as a hobby, art collaboration was a natural part of the experience. We weren’t focused on the outcome but on the shared creative experience itself, sharing ideas, and enjoying the time spent together.

For me, painting has always had a social aspect; it’s about spending time with friends and artists, bringing enjoyment to the collaborative art process of creation. I’ve found that artistic collaboration is much more enjoyable when shared with others.

The island provided the perfect setting for this kind of social creativity and art collaboration. With the beach nearby, sunny days, and the distance from civilization, we had all the time in the world to paint, talk, and enjoy the shared creative process.

The Art of Collaboration

Creating Lasting Friendships

When I first arrived on the island Karlovacka Ada, I had no formal atelier. I began painting casually at the Beach Bar, a place where there were few people during the day. People would join me, some out of curiosity, others just to chat. I encouraged everyone to try their hand at painting, and over time, a small group of friends and new acquaintances started coming back regularly for these collaborative art sessions. I had brought more canvases and supplies than I needed, and soon enough, people were painting alongside me, creating a vibrant and socially engaging atmosphere.

One of the most impactful art collaborations that began was with Marko Ćirić Ćira. Marko arrived on the island about a month after I had settled in. Though there was a significant age difference, it didn’t matter. He had contagious energy and was eager to dive into any creative project.

Initially, he was more focused on building sculptures—totems from driftwood. But it wasn’t long before Marko joined me in painting as well, demonstrating the versatility of our collaborative artistic endeavors.

Marko was the most productive among those who participated in the collaborative art process. By the end of August, Marko suggested organizing a small exhibition. We decided to focus on themes that reflected our environment: the Danube, the view of the nearby island opposite Karlovacka Ada, and the birds we were surrounded by every day. The sunsets, fog, and storms we experienced became the subjects of our collaborative paintings.

Our art collaboration didn’t end with that summer. The following year, we rented a studio in Belgrade to work together on several pieces in the Civilón series. Marko’s enthusiasm helped me stay motivated, and we encouraged each other to keep pushing forward in our shared creative journey.

Celebrating Art Collaboration

The Summer Exhibition

At the end of the summer on the island, Marko and I decided to hold a small exhibition showcasing our collaborative artworks, along with pieces done by other people. We displayed our artworks around the space near the atelier, arranging the paintings in an open, informal way. We invited a few friends, and visitors to the island came to see the paintings as well. We opened bottles of champagne and marked the occasion with a sense of accomplishment.

While the exhibition was small and casual, it taught me a lot about what it takes to organize a collaborative art event. I realized how much thought and effort goes into choosing the right pieces, setting up the space, and ensuring everything flows smoothly. This experience also highlighted the social aspect of art collaboration—how it brings people together.

The Uniqueness

of Each Art Collaboration

Another meaningful art collaboration has been with potter and sculptor Peter Ozsvar. While my collaboration with Marko was ongoing during the creation of the Civilon series, my work with Peter came later. Peter is an expert potter and sculptor, and I had known him since my student days when he taught me the basics of ceramics. Together, we’re creating ceramic pieces during the winter months in his studio in Kanjiza, located in the northern part of the country.

Unlike the spontaneous nature of my collaboration with Marko, collaborating with Peter is more structured. It’s also a valuable learning experience, as Peter shares his deep knowledge of ceramics and techniques. From time to time, we spend a few days working intensely, then take breaks for reflection before picking up again.

Unlike the collaborative energy on the island, our work with Peter is more focused and deliberate. We’re looking forward to exploring new artistic avenues with the creation of several bull sculptures and pottery pieces in the coming months as part of the Civilon series.

Together We Grow

Without art collaboration, series of paintings “Civilon – The Bull Who Loved to Eat Flowers” series would not be what it is today. Working with others has brought new ideas and perspectives to the table. I am proud of how the series has developed, and I know that these art collaborations were an essential part of the creative journey.

As I look forward to future projects, I realize the value of sharing the creative process with others. Art collaboration has been about expanding the creative experience, bringing others into the process, and enjoying the shared moments of creation. Marko’s youthful enthusiasm and fresh perspective, along with Peter’s deep expertise in ceramics, have both added dimensions to my work that I may not have explored on my own. While my style and approach to painting have remained largely the same, collaborating with others has opened the door to new ideas and methods that I continue to integrate into my artistic practice.

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Behind the Canvas: A Wife’s Story

Behind the canvas of Aleksandar Petkovic's artistic journey

“Behind the canvas of my husband’s artistic journey lies a story of passion, dedication, and transformation. Art is meant to speak to your soul. When you buy a piece of art from an artist, you’re not just buying a beautiful object. You’re buying hundreds of hours of dedicated work, including failures and experimentation You’re buying days, weeks, and months of pure joy. You’re buying a piece of heart, a part of a soul, a small fragment of someone else’s life—our life”

Witnessing the Artist's Transformation

Up Close and Personal

Watching my husband’s artistic journey behind the canvas to becoming an emerging artist has been a wild ride. It’s been rewarding, worrying, and totally unique. Although it’s ultimately his journey, I’ve been so close to it that every emotional roller-coaster, every experiment with colors and techniques, every failure, and every success in his biggest passion—artmaking—has deeply touched and consumed me. Our life together has grown and changed in ways I never imagined.

It’s fun to imagine oneself as an artist’s wife. Everyone must immediately assume you’re the muse who just casually wonders around his atelier half-naked, with a glass of wine in hand. Hair tousled, make-up half-done and the only parts of the day that exist in your artistic coupled life are the blush of done andthe fading light of dusk. No boring parts of the day like the lunch time or the laundry time. You live off love, wine and the occasional smoke basically, always bathed in perfect light. At least, that’s what I used to think. Well… I’ll tell you the real story.

So, the love of my life made the decision – changing life, complete transformation from construction project manager to artist. I, the loving wife, full of understanding, decide to stand by his side and support him wholeheartedly. Right! Were do we begin? Obviously, we needed a space where this life-changing project is going to take place. Finding it became an adventure in itself.

First choice was the mountain lodge where my husband basically likes to party with bunch of his friends, some of whom also managed the lodge—a perfect combo, we thought. The lodge, located on top of a hill in the middle of the woods, seemed like a perfect artist’s studio surrounded by nature – just the way that suits the artist in residence. Soon enough it turned out this was not such a good idea for several reasons, least of all because of the vicinity of the party-loving friends who took great interest in their friend’s artmaking. But not only that! Coming back home with his canvases and paint brushes, he realized he wasn’t prepared for a proper artistic start. He did pick a subject to paint, but when it came to the the story he wanted to tell and the way he wanted it to be portrayed – this was not clear even to him. He returned with a big question mark above his head.

Research, Inspiration and More Research

This is when the research began. Days turned into months of research and game planning. From the idea to simply paint bulls because they are so appealing, because out of all the paintings he did so far his bulls attracted the most attention and compliments; to exploring the story of Ferdinand the flower smelling bull, only to find out about the true life bull Civilon who was the inspiration for this children story, and learning the significance it used to hold as the anti-war book that was banned and burned in Nazi Germany; to becoming completely fascinated by the Civilon’s life. He dived into the history of the bullfighting trying to understand Hemingway’s passion for it, which did not come naturally given my husband’s enormous love for animals. And here I have to illustrate the enormousness of his love for animals for it is not your usual love for animals.

Mind you, my husband does not kill flies and mosquitoes; he catches and releases them. As told by one of his college roommates, they were not allowed to kill mosquitoes above his bed. Over the years they shared the room with number of my husband’s pets: a parrot Cira, rabbit Melissa, Doberman called Space and a Pekingese who loved to sleep under one roommate’s bed and take shit just outside the door so no one coming in or going out would miss stepping in it. And get this! One of Aleksandar’s favorite songs is called “A sky without birds”. It s a good song; a great song in fact! I like it a lot, too. But why does my husband love it? Because it makes him wonder what would a sky without birds look like and what a terrible sight would that be.

Art in Motion

From Mountain Lodges to River Banks: Art Studio Without Walls

After the mountain lodge, we moved the atelier to my parents’ house. Didn’t stay there long because who can truly let loose and be creative under the in-laws’ roof?! Our friend’s vacant apartment had successfully served as an art studio for one whole winter. Towards the end we were able to rent a nice space where my husband managed to do a lot of great work and finish his first two series – Journey and Civilon. While each place had its charm, the nature was and still is his favorite and best atelier. The studio he created on the Koh Chang beach on the Danube is where the magic happened. Surrounded by people and nature brings out the best in him as an artist and a human being.

So you see, these paintings have been on quite a journey themselves. They’ve slept on the beach many a nights, protected and wrapped with so much love and tenderness by my husband. They’ve sailed on boats and traveled in vans, becoming part of our life’s story.

So when you obtain one of these paintings, you are getting all of this.

From Engineering to Art

Balancing Precision and Passion

Aleksandar is a construction project manager who specializes in fit out works where precision is everything. An engineer by education and by the state of mind, he’s got a brain of a mathematician that works in unique ways. While I often say done is better than perfect, he counters with – it has to be the best. The time and attention he puts into every painting are extraordinary. So many times I would think a piece is finished and he would look at me, shaking his head – No, it’s not finished yet. I know exactly what’s missing, but I still can’t figure out how to get it out of me. We visited the Louvre in Abu Dhabi couple of years ago. Obviously fascinated by what I saw, I asked my husband what he thought about one of the paintings. I think it’s not finished, he said. :))

I can’t tell you how many times he would go on painting for hours and hours, days and nights, trying to get it right – and finished. Sometimes ending up completely fucking it up and doing it all over again. Without breaking a nerve, simply trusting the process and enjoying every step of the way.

This is also what you acquire when you own one of his paintings – sleepless nights filled with hard work and joy.

The Power of Art is the Power of Love

Shared Moments and Understanding

I loved visiting my husband in his atelier on the Danube. Every chance I got, I would join him there and I, who never camped before, grew to love sleeping in a tent, sitting by the fire in the evening and waking up to wash my face in the Danube in the morning. Here, at his favorite place in the world, living barefoot and wearing nothing but the bathing suit for days, I realized how priceless the direct contact with nature is.

We’ve had some pretty good times in the Belgrade studio, too. Some of my most treasured memories are when he invites me to the studio just to sit and look at the paintings together. He pulls out all the canvases, plays some music and we simply gaze at them. He explains what’s missing, what doesn’t feel quite right, and where the color palette needs adjusting.
But to be fair, we’ve had some rough times, too. Taking my husband’s art online and finding the rights way to present it was a true challenge. I graduated in communication and public relations so it was only natural that I take on the task of a creative writer and content creator. But I didn’t know what I was doing. We had no idea how to go on about making a website or creating the social media campaign. We had a clue!

I had my own vision, he had his own. Everything was constantly changing and growing in our minds. I would do or suggest something. He would stay quiet, not telling me he doesn’t like it—until he finally does. Over time, I’ve learned to hear and understand his silence.

We’ve argued often times. I wanted to resign from my role as creative writer and content creator, and he wanted to fire me, too. But then I would feel bad and couldn’t accept to be left out from something that is so big and beautiful, so life-changing and important to someone whom I love so much. So, I would try again. I’m still trying.

iPhone Needs to Cool Down

One of the best days we’ve had together on this project is what we fondly call the “iPhone needs to cool down” day. It was a scorching summer day on Koh Chang on the Danube. We arranged a photo shoot on the beach and in Alex’s summer atelier. I’m making it sound cool and professional when in fact it was hell! Two days of blood, sweat and tears – eventually washed off with few cold rose spritzers.

We started early in the morning because, experienced Danube campers that we are, we knew it would become too hot too soon. Set the stage first! Right! Install the easel at the beach. Bring all the paintings nearby but not too close so they are not in the shot. Make one short video, one long video, make few fun videos. Take some horizontal photos and then some vertical ones and then some. You know these influencer girls who torture their boyfriends to take photos for their social media? Exactly like that but in extreme weather. Soon enough, not only the sand was getting too hot, but my iPhone, which we used in lieu of a professional camera, started overheating, as well. The soles of our feet were burning and our not so professional camera was refusing further cooperation, sending us the message – “iPhone needs to cool down”. As if asking – don’t you?! Amazing day! One that we can’t stop talking about. So many great memories (and photos!) were made that day.

The Creative Process

A Never-Ending Journey

This artistic journey is far from over. Aleksandar’s pursuit of perfection in his art continues. Every original painting, every failure, and every success is a testament to his dedication and passion for art. The Colours of Life art webpage is up and running as I write this blog post. It is a quiet evening in our home, Rodriguez playing from the speakers. My husband is sitting across the table, working on another blog post, which you’ll soon be able to read. This blog post was the first one from me, and as I am wrapping it up, I think it is not going to be the last one. Aleksandar hasn’t read it yet… I hope he likes it.

Being part of my husband’s artistic journey has been one of the most rewarding and challenging experiences of my life. It has tested our patience, constantly pushing us out of our comfort zone. It sparked creativity in ways we never expected and brought us closer together. Through it all, I’ve realized that his art is more than just paint on canvas—it’s a living, breathing expression of everything we are and everything we aspire to be. When you look at Aleksandar’s paintings, I hope you’re not just seeing an image—you’re witnessing the embodiment of passion, the struggles, the triumphs, and the stories that shaped each piece of original art.

Let these paintings inspire you to see the world not only as it is, but as it could be.

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The Impassable Borders of My World

Art starts somewhere, right? For me, mountains set the stage. While my transformative artistic journey started in the summer of 2020, the love of art and nature seemed to have always been there. Growing up in Lika, Croatia, my childhood revolved around towering presence of mountains.

Mountains of My Childhood

Mountains inspired me to create series of paintings “Journey to the Top”. Lika is a remarkable piece of land defined by the savage beauty of the nature and best known for two things – the birthplace of the visionary Nikola Tesla in Smiljan and the breathtaking Plitvice Lakes, one of the most beautiful nature’s parks. Growing up at the foot of Velebit, the biggest of the five mountains of Lika and highest mountain in Croatia, I often used to gaze skyward, captivated by its heights. Among its majestic peaks, one held a special place in my heart – Visočica. Right beneath this peak, shadows and snow that remained until late summer, would form a silhouette resembling a delicate ballerina’s dress. As kids, we would constantly scan the horizon, seeking glimpses of this ethereal figure.

These mountains marked the impassable borders of my world. I vividly recall the day I set out on a daring adventure as a young boy, determined to conquer Visočica, standing proudly at 1615 meters. I remember this unbelievable feeling as I stood atop the summit and gazed towards my hometown of Gospić. Then, full of anticipation, I turned my eyes in the opposite direction, scanning the horizon above Adriatic See in search of Italy.

In Search of the New Horizons

Leaving behind the weight of stress and the clamor of construction sites, to dive into this new, artistic chapter of life, in a way reminds me of climbing Visočica. Like that exhilarating ascent, this new chapter fills me with a refreshing sense of beginner’s bliss. Once again, I am gazing at the horizon with much anticipation, looking forward to the adventure.

The enduring desire for adventure that propelled me to conquer Visočica has remained a constant in my life. It has been the driving force behind my pursuits, leading me to establish a construction business in Dubai and later venture into the restaurant industry. Throughout it all, my passion for art never faded. The same spirit of adventure guided me to embark on this transformative artistic project, reshaping my sense of purpose and bringing me a renewed sense of fulfillment.

Moving Forward: The Bittersweet Realization

Time has marched on since that memorable ascent, and with each passing day, my perception of life has been shaped by a myriad of experiences. As I returned to my hometown after many years, a bittersweet realization washed over me, unveiling just how profoundly my perspective had transformed. The mountains that loomed large in my memory seemed diminished in comparison to the grandeur I had since witnessed. Their stature had been humbled by the vastness of the world that I have traveled far and wide, encountering towering giants – from the mountains of Thailand, Ethiopia, Morocco… to the skyscrapers of Dubai. The mountains that once defined impassable borders of my world were now but small fragments in the collage of sceneries and experiences that made my life.

As I stood before these diminished yet familiar slopes, I realized one thing. Every mountain and its every unconquered peak, metaphorical or literal, are diminished with every new horizon that we encounter and every new experience in life. The mountains of my youth had nurtured my sense of adventure, fueling a desire to seek new summits to conquer.

While the mountains of my childhood may no longer hold the same dominance in my view, they remain a testament to the transformative power of exploration. They taught me to embrace the ever-changing nature of life, to adapt and grow with each new challenge that presents itself. I have conquered many “mountains” in my life and more wait to be conquered – the “mountains” that carry the weight of my dreams and aspirations. With each step, I am reminded that the true measure of a mountain is not its size, but the unyielding spirit it ignites within those who dare to ascend its slopes.

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Civilón – The Bull who Loved to Eat Flowers

A powerful image of Civilón, the real-life bull who inspired the beloved children's story character Ferdinand, standing in a bullring. The image depicts the majestic animal facing the crowd, conveying a sense of strength, resilience, and the anti-war message embedded in the "Civilón" painting series.

“Bullfighting is the only art in which the artist is in danger of death and in which the degree of brilliance in the performance is left to the fighter’s honor.” (E. Hemingway)

The Artist's Journey

From Ferdinand to Civilón

This blog post explores the artistic journey of an emerging artist inspired by the true story of Civilón, the real-life bull that inspired the beloved children’s story, Ferdinand. Discover how this journey led to the creation of a series of paintings with a powerful anti-war message.

I created a series of large-scale acrylic paintings “Civilon – Bull Who Loved to Eat Flowers” to recount the tale of Civilón that lived in Spain in the 1930s and inspired creation of famous flower smelling Ferdinand the Bull. The series holds a strong anti-war message but also unravels the intricate dance of destiny in life, particularly under the shadow of war’s devastation.

The story of Ferdinand was born from a creative challenge between friends. American children’s book author, Munro Leaf, wrote the story in less than an hour as a prompt for his illustrator friend, Robert Lawson. Leaf’s tale embraced diversity and pacifism, denouncing the brutality of violence and death. This message of peace, however, proved controversial in some circles. In Franco’s Spain, the pacifist message of Ferdinand was seen as a threat to the regime. The book was subsequently banned and publicly burned, a chilling reminder of the dangers of suppressing ideas that challenge the status quo. Similarly, in Nazi Germany, where the emphasis was on militarism and aggression, Ferdinand’s message of peace and non-violence was deemed unacceptable and the book was similarly banned and burned.

Despite these attempts to suppress its message, Ferdinand’s story continued to resonate with readers around the world, and Walt Disney’s 1938 animated adaptation became a beloved classic, earning an Academy Award.

New Understanding of Bullfighting and the Ferdinand’s Tale

Civilón’s story initially stirred the imagination of Munro Leaf, an American writer of children literature, to write the “Story of Ferdinand” as a creative prompt for his friend, illustrator Robert Lawson. He wrote the story on a paper pad in less than an hour, wanting to awaken Lawson’s artistic imagination out of a lull. Leaf’s tale embraced diversity and pacifism, denouncing the brutality of violence and death. As time passed, it was attributed political agenda and sparked considerable controversy because Ferdinand was regarded as a pacifist symbol by some. Eventually the book fell under the ban in Franco’s Spain and was burned as propaganda in Nazi Germany. Walt Disney transformed it into a cherished animated masterpiece Ferdinand the Bull that earned the Oscar in 1938.

I don’t know about you, but I had been oblivious my entire life about the background of the beloved cartoon character from our childhood. In fact, I knew very little about the bullfighting and never witnessed it first-hand. As an animal lover and a long-time vegetarian, I’ve never been particularly drawn to this blood splashing spectacle. My entire understanding of the corrida is primarily drawn from studying the life of Civilón while preparing to paint this series. However, one thing has remained constant throughout my life: a profound respect for the strength and bravery of these magnificent creatures. I have always found myself drawn to the stories of Ferdinand and Civilón, instinctively siding with the bull.

The Dual Motivation behind the Series

The drive behind my decision to start this series was twofold. Firstly, I was deeply inspired by the revelation of the true-life story behind Ferdinand – a character that had accompanied me since childhood. This discovery ignited a desire to explore the deeper meaning behind the beloved children’s story and translate that into a series of impactful artworks. Secondly, and perhaps more importantly, I sought to convey the powerful anti-war message embedded within the “Civilón” paintings. The profound resonance of the anti-war sentiment, which I keenly experienced while delving into Civilón’s life events, aligns intimately with my own sentiments and experience of the world. Much like the tragic fate that befell Civilón at the hands of soldiers, the stark reality of his demise mirrors the ongoing global conflicts that continue to unfold before our eyes. By retelling Civilón’s life story, I want to evoke a reflection on the devastating impact of conflicts and contribute to the collective dialogue against war, for a world of compassion, understanding, and peace.

Second motive behind my decision to start this particular art project was a practical one. I already painted several bull paintings which had been met with a lot of admiration and praise. So, as I started this new journey, transitioning my life from the construction project management to art making, the choice was clear and logical – painting the bull series became the most significant project in my career as an emerging artist.

Capturing the Essence of Civilón

In essence, the paintings serve as a tribute to Civilón, an attempt to immortalize him, if only for an ephemeral moment. While the details are intentionally sparse, the foreground takes precedence in each piece, with shadows adding a distorted, unpredictable dimension. Some of the backgrounds are made using a pouring technique – a method based on unpredictable movement of paint that reflects the unpredictability of life itself, much like the unexpected turns in Civilón’s life. The color palette and textures in this painting series serve as a nuanced reflection of the fundamental elements in the corrida – the golden sand, the vivid hues of blood, the rugged texture of the bull’s leather, the sharp contours of horns and hooves, all set against the expansive canvas of the azure sky.

To highlight the profound essence of the narrative, I have rendered the central characters, Civilón and his herd, in a stark, minimalist style. I’ve deliberately left out extraneous elements, focusing instead on the raw emotions that emerge when the animal confronts its adversary. The spotlight rests on short moments that brim with anticipation—just before or after the fight, a fleeting touch, a questioning gaze, or a challenging assessment.

I’ve striven to capture a sense of fluidity, evoking the changing frames of a film. Civilón’s life is portrayed in all its facets—from his youthful innocence, the chilling foreknowledge of death upon observing a truck filled with animals destined for the slaughterhouse, to his tragic end. I used ballerinas in some paintings to embody life’s intricate dance of fate. Their graceful forms are also there to echo the artistic moves of matadors that resemble a form of modern and timeless dance. Finally, in one of the paintings, the ballerina emerges as a symbolic personification of the bull (“Dance Me to the End of Fight“), offering a reflection on the assertion that bullfighting is not merely a sport but an intricate art form. The juxtaposition of the delicate yet powerful ballerina against the backdrop of bullfighting elements sparks contemplation on the duality inherent in this controversial practice.

Who Is Civilón & What Really Happened?

Civilón was the darkest and most acclaimed bull at Don Juan Cobaleda’s farm, bred as a toro bravo and destined for the bullfighting ring. He passed all the tests with flying colours and was chosen for corrida. While waiting to be shipped to Valencia for his first fight, he got into a fight with two other bulls at the farm and had to wait until his wounds healed.

Don Juan had a daughter Carmelita, who was only seven years old when he found her petting the wounded bull and feeding him flowers. Picture the scene: a captivating juxtaposition of contrasts as the black beast delightedly nibbled on flowers offered by the little girl’s hands. Don Juan, undoubtedly taken aback yet mesmerized, witnessed a stroke of fate in the touch of Carmelita’s hand. Naturally, the news spread like wildfire, capturing the attention of Spanish newspapers and drawing other curious children to the farm, armed with bouquets to nourish the amiable creature.

A Change of Fate in the Shadow of War

However, the idyllic charm of the story takes an unexpected turn in the spring of 1936 when Franco’s fascist forces cast their menacing shadow over Barcelona. In the meantime, Civilón’s wounds healed and while Carmelita was all in tears and begging her father to keep him at the farm; Don Juan was determined to send him to corrida. His decision was very much welcomed by the manager of the Barcelona’s bullring who summoned Civilón for epic showdown.

The arena thrummed with anticipation as countless spectators gathered, craving a glimpse of the flower-devouring bull that had warmed the hearts of children, now facing the bloodthirsty threat within the ring. The customary spectacle unfolded: picadors pierced Civilón’s flesh between his shoulders, and in response, the bull charged and fought back, his primal instincts ignited by the assault. The crowd roared in a tumultuous blend of awe and anticipation. And then, amid the chaos, a voice rang out—Don Juan’s voice, calling out the wounded, ebony beast. A hush fell over the arena, capturing the attention of every onlooker. Civilón, his gaze fixed on Don Juan, approached, tenderly leaning his head for a soothing caress. It was a moment that transcended the brutality. No amount of violence could erase the bull’s memory of kindness and trust in humanity!

The Nobility, Pardon and a Woman’s Voice: The Final Twist

In that profound moment, the cruel fervor within the spectators softened, and humanity and compassion emerged from the depths of their bloodthirsty hearts. The audience, profoundly moved by the bull’s display of nobility, known as “nobeleza,” witnessed an extraordinary occurrence. As the matador approached, ready to deliver the final blow between Civilón’s shoulders, a woman’s voice pierced the air, crying out for “un indulto”—a pardon that would spare the bull from death, a recognition of his bravery and nobility. In an instant, the crowd rose to its feet, and a unified chorus resounded, echoing through the arena—un indulto, un indulto, un indulto! And so, the pardon was granted. The noble toro bravo, saved by the voice of a woman, as the newspapers would report, was first escorted to the city stables to recover before returning to the verdant pastures of his home.

The final twist in the tale unfolded two weeks later, while Civilón still convalesced in Barcelona stables. Franco’s fascist forces stormed into the city. In the ravaging spree, a group of soldiers breached the city stables, brutally slaying Civilón and consuming his flesh for lunch. The resistance forces would eventually repel the invaders that evening, albeit too late for Civilón. The Spanish Civil War would soon erupt in all its fury, followed by the cataclysm of the Second World War, casting the final shadow upon this enigmatic tale.

The Art of Facing the Danger of Death

While preparing for this series, I explored the work of other artists whose creations, diverse in style and interpretation, were inspired by bulls and bullfighting. Needless to say, all paths have led to Hemingway.

Hemingway’s deep understanding of bullfighting shone through his writings, capturing the essence of the sport as an embodiment of profound themes. With eloquence and conviction, he expressed his perspective on bullfighting as a fusion of tragedy, beauty, and an ultimate test of courage. In his words, “Bullfighting is the only art in which the artist is in danger of death and in which the degree of brilliance in the performance is left to the fighter’s honor.“

To Hemingway, bullfighting went far beyond mere spectacle; it bore the weight of a metaphor for life itself. He believed that within the bullring, individuals had an opportunity to confront the ever-present specter of death and grapple with their own mortality. One of the paintings was named after the name of Hemingway’s novel “Death in the Afternoon”. In the work of the same name, Hemingway says: In his renowned book “Death in the Afternoon,” he articulated this sentiment, stating, “The only place where you could see life and death, i.e. violent death now that the wars were over, was in the bullring and I wanted very much to go to Spain where I could study it.”

The bullfight, according to Hemingway, symbolized a profound struggle against fate, a relentless quest for honor and courage. It reflected the human condition, showcasing the inherent battles individuals faced in their lives. He saw in the bullfighters an embodiment of his own artistic principles, as he stated, “There are only three sports: bullfighting, motor racing, and mountaineering; all the rest are merely games.” For Hemingway, these endeavors demanded an unwavering spirit and the willingness to confront and overcome challenges, mirroring the struggles faced by writers in their pursuit of creating impactful and meaningful work.

Hemingway’s passion for bullfighting and his belief in its metaphorical significance were echoed in his own approach to writing. He saw writing as an art form that required the same grit and determination exemplified in the bullring.

My Affinity for Civilón and His Human Encounters

I, too, find myself somewhat entwined with this sentiment when contemplating Civilón the bull. While Hemingway’s passion for bullfighting was rooted in his profound appreciation for its artistry, bravery, and the ritualistic aspects that encompassed the spectacle, my admiration is more firmly anchored in the intricate dynamics that unfolded between Civilón and the humans whose lives intersected with his own. From his glory days adorning the covers of Spanish magazines, to the pivotal moment of his pardoning within the bullring, celebrated for his noble nature, to the heartrending descent amidst the chaos of war, Civilón’s story unfolded in a manner that touched me to the core.

What strikes me the most is the profound symbolism found in the clear-cut contrast of the brutality and nobility of human nature, as exemplified by the intense fight between the toreador and the bull. Yet, in the extraordinary case of Civilón, this symbolism extends far beyond the confines of the bullring, permeating every aspect of his life.

Civilón’s life deviated from the usual tracks several times. An injury received in a fight with his herd delayed his journey to the bullfight in Valencia and a certain death. His friendship with the ranch owner’s daughter attracted media attention, and the subsequent interest from animal lovers gave Civilón a chance to survive the bullfight. But then, the madness of war and the hunger of soldiers abruptly ended his life. A journey of ups and downs! The war took away his chance of living every bull’s dream life – happily ever after at a farm, surrounded by many a beautiful cows.

Civilón’s story shattered the illusion of a peaceful ending as depicted in the cartoon. His end was marked by violence, noise, and laughter, with the pavement blood-stained and littered with his flesh. I often wonder about the moment when Civilón’s potential executioner, Toreador Estudente, looked at him during the bullfight while picadors jabbed a spear into his neck muscle. I wonder if Civilón remembered the day when the toreador, dressed in a less flamboyant suit, offered him flowers instead of a sword while posing for the photographer.

Resilience, Fate and the Power of Art

This painting series is an exploration of empathy, mortality, and the inescapable unpredictability of life, all embodied in the poignant tale of Civilón, a bull whose life and death inspire and move me as an artist.

In the tapestry of my life and artmaking, Civilón emerges as a poignant reflection of my own journey. Both our narratives serve as a testament to the resilience within. We both danced to the whims of fate, treading the fragile line between life and death, echoing the deep anti-war sentiments that have shaped our paths. In the face of adversity, Civilón discovered an unparalleled strength. Though he was defeated by the circumstances around him, his spirit never wavered, never surrendered and he never lost faith. The profound role of art in this world is in capturing such relentless spirits and inspiring stories that have the transformative power. It fills me with immense joy to be a conduit for this amazing task…to put such stories on canvas and serve them to the world.

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Love of Nature & Embracing its Resilience

Ever since childhood, my love for nature has remained an unwavering part of who I am. Unlike my childhood that was marked by the towering presence of the mountains, my teenage and student years revolved around completely different natural settings in Serbia, where I moved in 1991.

Summers on Danube

As a teenager, I started camping on Danube with friends. We have experienced many storms and big waves, leaking boats, muddy waters and countless mosquito bites. I had the urge to conquer this mighty river so one summer I swam across, from one bank to the other. It is probably in the face of a storm over mighty Danube, that I have first witnessed the sheer strength of nature. In those moments, when confronted with its relentless cruelty, I have discovered an empowering sense of resilience within me. But over the time, this is where I have also found peace and inspiration.

Synergy of Art and River

Recently, my artistic muse has been Karlovacka Ada, also known as the Danube’s Koh Chang Island. During the summer, each day I face the river, lose myself in its beauty, and let art flow.

I have been painting in summer atelier on the shore of the Danube, in the depths of the nature, for the last three summers. The island of Koh Chang on Danube, where my transformative artistic journey started, has become the atelier and a sanctuary for my artistic expression. Its breathtaking scenery, with sprawling landscapes and gentle whispers of the river, provides the perfect backdrop for my creative process. Each morning, minutes before the sunrise as the melodious symphony of birdsong awakens me from slumber, I step barefoot from my tent and face the Danube. There, amidst the mesmerizing colors and textures that only nature can provide, I become a conduit, transferring the essence of this enchanting world onto the canvas. I become one with nature.